04 June 2014

Final Draft of PCOS Paper

I have been super busy with homework and school and working.  But I was finally able to get this paper done today.  I want to thank everyone at my pcos support groups on facebook for the support and encouragement.  I dedicate this paper to all my "cysters".

Psychological Effects of PCOS
            There are many mental issues that accompany Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome.  With all illnesses, there is a propensity for stress, and worry.  When an illness adds to it, with the physical disabilities and physical ailments, this makes the mental issue even more so.  Suicide is rampant, feelings of inadequacy, wanting to be someone or somewhere else.  This can take over a person’s life, and when this happens, it becomes even more of a problem.  Women need to realize they are women who can fight and beat this battle, and not allow it to beat them down.
            A few of the psychological effects are gender identity, anxiety, depression, OCD, not to mention eating disorders, bipolar, and coexistence anxiety and depression.  There is body dissatisfaction, diminished sexual satisfaction, and lower health related quality of life.  The quality of life not only depends on the physical outcome, but also the mental.  It is said that if we have a positive attitude, there is a better chance of you surviving.  But sometimes, the negativity takes over, and does not want to allow a person to see the forest for the trees.  Knowing what the mental issues that go with PCOS, can go a long way to helping a woman to be a better person, and give her a leg up.  This paper will focus on gender identity, body dissatisfaction, and eating disorders.
            One of the symptoms of PCOS is excessive male hormones, and this could convince a woman that she might be better off as a man.  Here she is, growing a beard and moustache, she has small breasts, and a “beer” belly.  Now she looks like the guy next door who sits on his porch in his jeans and wife beater.  A woman wants to feel beautiful and cherished, not ugly and ridiculed.  She will want to hide behind bigger shirts, and baggy jeans.  She knows that she has to shave every day, and she hides this fact from her boyfriend/significant other.  Women with PCOS feel they have to live a hidden second life, because of the expectations of the world.  She does not want to wear the makeup, the perfume, or whatever else that a “normal” woman wears.  I was sent this quote by Kimmy Urwiller earlier today, I constantly experienced feelings of jealousy. I hated watching my friends with cute little baby bumps. I hated feeling sick all the time and not wanting to go out and do things. I felt jealousy at the people who felt good and watched them from my little nest wishing I had the energy to be like them. Wishing. Hoping. Wanting to be normal."  Yes, normal is subjective, but when it comes to looking out from within, and feeling no part of it, a person never has that normalcy in their life.
            Gender Identity is not just the physical features, it is what is felt on the inside.  There is a huge difference between a girl being a tomboy, and her wanting to BE a boy.  She fits in neither world, she does not feel comfortable playing hopscotch or jump rope or with dolls with the other girls, and she is scared of being made fun of by everyone, if she joins the boys in kickball or basketball.  Everyone wants to be part of something, but if your body rejects being part of something, then you are left out.  There is a common saying: “sexual identity is in the perineum, gender identity is in the cerebrum. (Shuvo Ghosh, 2012)  It needs to be understood that no matter what gender or what sex a person is, they are still a person with quality, love and life, and all deserve to be happy, no matter how they decide to live.
            As stated above there are many reasons why a woman could be unhappy.  When her body does things that are not “normal”, this makes it even more difficult.  Looking like a man, and unsure if she wants to be a woman or a man, it can hurt.  Every woman is rarely satisfied with her body, she feels she has the wrong color eyes, or hair, wants curly hair instead of straight, scars that embarrass her, is too short, too tall, or whatever.  But when a woman has an illness that disfigures the body in some way, she is now going to have to deal with the fall out, of body dissatisfaction.  She might have discoloration around the neck and thighs, inordinate acne, which leads to scarring, hirsitusim, meaning increased hair growth.  She can be overweight, underweight.  She wants to hide, and cover her body, be someone else. But that is not her fate.  She has to try and look past what she feels is embarrassing and ugly.  She has to find the inner beauty, because believing in herself that is the only strength to find.  Being a woman is hard enough, having physical deformities only makes it that much harder.
            Last but not least, there are the eating disorders.  A “typical” woman who has Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome, will be overweight, possibly diabetic, and other weight issues.  When she is around nine-15, her body begins to blow up, without any true reason.  She eats healthy, but her body retains it, no matter what she does.  Her mother and friends nag her about her weight.  She becomes depressed and decides that not eating at all might solve the problem.  She will exercise to the point of exhaustion, eating only about 300 calories per day.  This can lead to a very debilitating illness called anorexia nervosa.  Then there are the women who eat very little, and then try and throw it up, that is called bulimia.  Then there are the ones who get into a vicious cycle of a cross between anorexia and over eating.  One day they will eat everything in sight, then they later feel guilty, and will barely touch anything for a few days, and then will overeat again.  Mothers need to realize that what their daughter is going through, is not only hurtful to their body, but to their mind.  If a mother nags and berates her child, it will only lead to more problems.  Love your children, hug them, and tell them that yes, life is unfair, but it can be survived.
            Here are some testimonials from some women I interviewed:
·                     Azaria Godlevsky-De Anda Anxiety, self-shaming, depression, hopelessness, suicide attempts.
·         Nicole Riley The chemical imbalance that we PCOS sufferers deal with is ridiculous. One day I am fatigued, the next I am fine. One day I don't wanna carry on living this way, the next I am happy as can be. Depression itself is able to be treated but then you throw in the chemical imbalance, and you have a whole new can of worms.
·         Erica Torres Depression, major anxiety and panic disorder. The amount of medications I had to take and nothing worked. Everything gave me adverse reactions. The emotional toll it takes on you because of your weight and not being able to conceive. Also your hormones just going crazy constantly. I'm about an appointment away until they diagnose me with bipolar. That’s how bad my mood swings get. Pcos sucks
·         Charissa Bennett Inabnet Emotionally, I feel a lot of my issues stem from doctors and the press BLAMING me. "If you ate healthier you wouldn't have it. If you worked out harder, you wouldn't have it." That's where a lot of my anger and depression comes from.......I apologize I got off topic..........but I have serious issues with panic attacks and anxiety. The anxiety and panic attacks over nothing.....that's the worst.
·         Guadalupe Meza Marroquin Mood swings, depression, insomnia and anxiety/stress. I have found that there is a link between mineral and vitamin deficiencies which causes these other mental issues. Complex Vitamin b and omegas help with my mood and depression. Magnesium/zinc make a difference for my anxiety/stress. Look up how these vitamins/mineral help with these mental disorders. I am not an expert but have done lots of research.
·         Emma Cannell I have had pretty bad depression - medicated but currently "in remission" always waiting for it to rear its ugly head....

As you can see, this hurts women in so many ways, and they are frustrated and tired, and the doctors refuse to see this.  The idea of what a woman’s worth is, needs to change.  Not all women are meant to be wives and mothers, but that doesn’t mean their worth as a woman is any less.  Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome is not only a physically debilitating disease, but it effects women mentally and emotionally.  Doctors need to be taught that with every illness there is always a complications with the added stress.  This can effect a person in many ways, such as depression, anxiety, PTSD, and then add in a hormonal level that can outweigh anything else, and this raises the propensity for mental issues to an astronomical amount.  Women already battle for self-esteem, love, connections and friendship, adding in the health problems can cause a woman to feel even less of a woman.  Fighting the battle is not impossible, but it can become a frustrating vicious cycle that many will never understand or overcome.

26 April 2014

A Thesis statement

I am working hard on trying to get my research paper underway.  This week we have to turn in our thesis statement.  I want to get the wording just right, but do not want it to be too wordy.  Here is what I have so far, but I may reduce it some, as it is, wordy:
"Doctors tend to forget that being sick can effect you psychologically, there are many mental issues that accompany PCOS, we need to understand why this happens, so we can work with it."
hehe, I reduced it, here was the original sentence:
Doctors tend to forget that being sick can effect you pyschologically, there are many mental issues that come along with PCOS, including gender identity, eating disorders, anxiety, and others, we need to understand why this is happening, so we can work with it."
Yeah, I like the new sentence, although I might change the last part, as it has problems.  I am doing better in anatomy, I got an 81% on the test this week, so much better than the 47% the previous week!  Now I just need to work harder on it....I got on the deans list for last quarter!  I need to get my butt back in gear and work on KEEPING on the deans list.  We will just have to see how things go :)

23 April 2014

Classes, and can I really do this?

Okay, I have failed at keeping up with this blog, again!
This month has been busy, working, and going to school, and yes, even flunking a test.  And that was in my best subject, anatomy! So, this just means I need to work harder.  The test was on cells, and I have a feeling, cells are going to be my down fall.  Give me bones, muscles, diseases, Im all good, cells, forget it.
This week, its the organ system.  I am good on this one, I can nearly name them all without cheating!
Integumentary system---the skin, hair, nails, etc
Muscular system--of course, the muscles, but what goes where, hmmm?  But there are only three types, the voluntary, which is basically the muscles attached to the bones to help us manuever around.  Then there are the involuntary ones, which are the cardiac muscles, and the smooth muscles, which ummm, well, those help us go  to the bathroom!
Skeletal system, these are the bones and joints, and they hold us upright, and allow us do to what we need to do.
Nervous system, this is the brain and spinal cord.....honey, without this one, I would'nt remember my head if it were attached.
Endocrine system, which is my favorite one, and I will go into that a little bit lower in the blog.  This one involves nearly all the glands, everything from the head to the pelvic region.  Its what keeps our body in proper from, makes us male or female, helps with growth, reproduction, etc.
Cardiovascular system, this of course is the heart and the blood vessels surrounding it.  This one is another favorite, but thats because I have gotten so involved with taking care of people who have heart problems, so I have gotten to know the subject pretty well.

Lymphatic system, this one I have trouble with, I am still trying to understand what goes where, why it works, why we need it, etc.
Respiratory system, this is the breathing aparatus!  Nose, pharynx, larynx, trachea, bronchi and lungs.  Last night, I was playing on a game on my iPod that I had downloaded, and one of the questions was what is the route of the respiratory system....mouth/nose, pharynx, larynx, trachea, bronchi and lungs, and I got it right, woohoo!
Digestive system, everyones favorite, FOOD!!  And of course, we all know how much I like to cook, and talking about food.  Of course, this alos involves the netherregions too, but um, we won't go there.
Urinary system--I  use to have a resident, he was bed bound, and he would lay in bed calling out "gotta pee, gotta pee, gotta pee" after a minute or two he would call out "too late, too late, too late".  I always think of him when I am dealing with urinary situations, lol.
Reproduction-my other favorite, but that's because it is involved in the endocrine system so much.

Okay, why is the endocrine system my favorite?  I have an illness by the name of Polycsystic Ovarian Syndrome.  I call it the sister illness to endometriosis, but it really isn't.  It has its own symptoms, own side effects, and health problems.  But they are similar in that they can render a woman infertile, cause problems with periods, cause cancer, etc.  Anyway, for my composition class, my instructor wants us to write a 3-5 page research paper.  I am going to do mine on the psychological effects of PCOS.  Basically, doctors and others focus more on the infertility, diabetes, cancer, skin tags, excessive hair, excessive periods, or whatever else is going on, but they rarely if ever focus on the mental anguish this illness can cause a woman!  Think about it, you are a 14 year old girl, and you have hair on your chin, and around your face, you might have your period for 3 months straight, or you might not get it at all, and you are gaining weight.  Life as a teenager is difficult as it is, but when people start hasseling you about losing weight, and wow, why are you so hairy, oh, and wait, you haven't gotten your period yet?  And then you get married, and want to have kids, and welp, this isn't happening.  You begin to feel like you are not a real woman.  Your body is betraying you, and not doing what it should do "normally".  No one else has these problems, why do you?  This can mess with a girls mind so much, causing depression, bipolar, anxiety, and eating disorders.  We need to focus more on what this is doing to our minds, not just our bodies!
Anyway, that's what I am going to do my research paper on.  I know I will have too many emotions involved in it, and I will try and curtail that, but I want people to understand, our minds can help heal or hinder us, just as much as a medicine or treatment can.

Medical Law and Ethics, like one of my classmates says, it is mainly common sense.  There is a lot to learn, and some of it, I am not really all that interested in, like the politics, or what the congress passes, or what the House of Reps does.  But it is all part of it, so I will keep steaming along.  I am getting a 96% in the class, so I guess that is pretty good, right?
I will be needing to d a persuasive paper for that class later in the quarter, unless the teacher gives us a certain topic, I am going to do mine on bloodless surgeries.

02 April 2014

the New Quarter

A new month, and of course I did not keep up on this like I said I would.  But, things happened, we lost internet for awhile, and then my laptop crashed, so of course, every time I tried to do anything, I got slammed back five steps.
Anyway, a new month, and a new quarter of classes.  I passed all of my other classes, all A- woohoo!
Now I am taking composition (oh, and my teacher wants us to write in a journal every day, so, I have to work on this daily!), medical law and ethics, and anatomy and physiology.  I am going to love this quarter.
Technically classes began Monday, and I was able to start reading on my medical law and ethics book.  I have 30 questions that need to done for that class.  Then a quiz for that class.
I have my first anatomy and physiology class tomorrow,  I have already read the first chapter, done the key terms, and worked on some of the end of chapter questions.  I will need to work on that some more the next couple of days.
I have also joined up with a chat group that is a bunch of writers.  We talk about ideas, what we are writing, formatting, spelling, grammar and so forth.  We also discuss authors, and other things, so between school, the job (oh yeah, I got a job!), and homework, Im busy, and some days, I don't know where to turn!  Wake me when I am dead, lol.

04 February 2014

A New Year, A New Me

I know, I know, I don't up with this blog, or any of the others, but that is changing.  Yeah, sure, you have said that before.  Yes, I can hear you say that...:P.  But this time, I really am.
Last month I started going back to school, and I have decided, a good way for me to keep track of assignments and other things, is to record it here.  Since I waited a whole month, I wont make you suffer through the first month, I will just start with this week.
I am going to Harrison College in Indianapolis.  I am going for Medical Assistant.  The reason I have chosen this one, is because I have been a CNA since 1997.  I love being a CNA and working with patients/residents.  I have not been working for the past three years, for different reasons, but I truly want to get back to it.
At the moment, I am taking medical terminology, computers and office automation, and strategies for success.  I love the medical terminology class, I would have to say its my favorite class.  I guess strategies for success after that, because I honestly just hate the computer class.
I have been working on how to organize all of my classes and assignments over the past month, so that I have time do do more than just study.  I have finally figured out, if I read over the books during the weekend, the weekend prior to that week.  Then I can devote time during the week to writing up papers, doing any research, and whatever else needs to be done.  I am about three days ahead of schedule now, and it feels good.  I am doing the classes online, so I don't get to meet up with any of the students, nor any of my teachers, so sometimes that part is a bit frustrating, but I am enjoying it all so far.
Today for my med class I did a research paper on the strangest phobia I had ever heard of.  That was turophobia, the fear of cheese.  Yes, there is such a thing, and I actually know someone who absolutely loathes cheese, and it is so bad, will not eat anything if she thinks its in it.

Then I had to do a second paper for my med class on the HIPAA laws, and a scenario that could possibly happen.
For my strategies for success class, I had to do a paper on test anxiety, and how, if any, a test effects me.  I am one of those types of people that I am horrible when its time to take a test.  I will study til I'm dead on my feet the night before, and then before the test I am nearly freaking out to the point of an anxiety attack, and then when I sit down to do it, I start doing breathing techniques and I am calming down, but I try to rush through it, because I just want to get it over and done with. 
For the computer class, I had to do a paper on counterfeiting and how it effects not just the people who do it, but us too.  The ones who steal our identities, the ones who do fake licenses, social security cards, and other documents.  All of it adds up, and effects us in one way or another.  Then another part for the computer class, we have a program that walks us through how to use Word, Excel, and PowerPoint.  So I had to do one of the walkthroughs today.  It was for Excel, I HATE EXCEL!  Have I mentioned I hate Excel?  For me, I don't need it.  I don't keep track of anything that needs to be kept track of number wise.  I am a CNA (soon to be Med Assistant) and a genealogist.  Excel means nothing to me...its like algebra, it needs to go take care of its own personal problems....I dont know where its ex is, and I don't care!